...my awakening

Awakening

This is quite personal account below however I have written this to share with you – to possible inspire you too. It was a key enabler of me realising my current dream.

I was brought up like a lot of my friends and peers – lucky enough to be brought up in a safe and stable environment, receive a good education and get a good job to ‘start my career’. I’m 35 now and have realised I have been doing my career for the past 15 years! Working my way up the slippery corporate ladder. I managed to earn a decent salary, got a mortgage, bought a place and all the trappings that go with property ownership. I must say that it was no easy ride – corporate life is tough and in my mind they don’t pay you much at all compared to the effort put in (as a small business owner the risks are higher but so are the rewards yet with the same effort).

However one night about two years ago (winter 2006) I was sitting waiting for a taxi at my place when I realised that I wasn’t actually that truly happy. It was a moment when it all came to ahead, I asked myself, ‘what am I doing here, surely there must be more to my life than this’. This was not a sudden or new feeling it had been growing for a long time very subtly but just went unnoticed in the pace of my life. During this very low ebb my sister told me to read The Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield. It might help to make things in life seem clearer. While reading it I really began to understand what they were talking about, life’s path, coincidences & signs, energy & nature. Religion, well I just haven’t been able to agree with it a 100% however Spirituality, it does make a lot more sense to me. well you should read the book yourself to understand but it has given me a whole new strength and confidence. Unbelievable.

The point I am trying to make now is that I am starting to believe that there is more to life than the visible, tangible artefacts in our world. Something more powerful. Something even that you can use to influence your own future and destiny through intention and attraction (I know you think its crazy – I did too). Anyway I am not going to go on but I will say that this, it has been a very conscious decision to travel around the world and ever since I took that decision all has been falling into place – as if I was meant to do this.

What I do want out of this journey? Time. Time away from the wheel. Time away from the noise. Time to think, to reflect & to start to better understand me. Of course I want to experience everything & everyone. However, ultimately through getting to know myself better, understanding what makes me happy, I want to make (other) conscious decisions & choices about the rest of my life and NOT carry on like I have before (like a horse with blinkers on). I want to give life, the universe, the people & events I come across the opportunity to influence the course of my path – for the better. How exciting!